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August did in fact slip away but July is coming

Late nights in the middle of June when everything still felt like a beginning, the thrill of it all with a brand new project, bright enough to mistake the scaffolding for a home. You kept striking matches just to watch the room turn gold a little wonder here, a little promise there, enough light to make me believe the sun had finally chosen my window. And perhaps that was the cruelest part how easily a borrowed kind of joy can look like devotion when it keeps returning with your name on it Then came a Monday ordinary enough to be forgettable, the kind that arrives with unfinished coffee and no warning in its hands. And somewhere between what you said you would never do and what you eventually did, hope became a room I was always left to clean alone. Cause I loved you in the language of my own, while you only loved the moment just before it disappeared. Quickly turned into exhibit A of failing to see people as they are ...

The sea taught me in March

The sky paints itself in endless shades, The ocean shifts it's tide yet they remain, through tempests and tranquil times Love is this, Staying.. even as the world changes and rearranges itself. And life is the quiet art Of living and learning to be grateful for the calm and the chaos alike..

Unlovable lover

What's it like? To have a best friend? A loving parent? A supportive teacher? A friendly neighbour? A soul mate? A pet? What's it like? To love someone & get it in return.... What is it really like? To love & be loved.... To care & be taken care of.... And not feel unlovable...

hope it won't take forever

two decades millions of thoughts drowning in self doubt two decades thousands of hate words I said to myself two decades hundreds of days to unlearn to hate me two decades five people who knows who I wanna be two decades one life to hate which's mine right now two decades zero reasons to hate who I was two decades infinite ways to love who I am how much longer to connect the life I want to myself...

Time time again

they feel longer than they lived they keep me going still sometimes the only fix feels burrowed from someone's wit some bubbly girl in her bubble who lived them like a wish as she hears her name by a dear voice her gut melts a storm of butterflies a spring of memories we travelled in from the past hope they fade away hope they always stay hope they melt my gut again hope they never repeat hope it's a lucid dream to get lost and walk through hope I find my peace in it the day I can let go